Burnout: The Villain We All Pretend to Ignore

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  1. JulieS April 26, 2018 at 11:12 pm #

    Yes, I burned out in a career so badly that I can’t even do it any more. And I was good at it, but I didn’t know what tho take a break.

    So, I moved on to a different skill set, and the same thing happened. I overextended myself by taking on three large, full-time projects and trained myself to sleep four hours a night … or so I thought. But I woke up one day about two years into this routine, totally panicked because it was 2 p.m — yes! in the afternoon! How in the world could I have overslept so long! — and I came downstairs, panicked because I’d missed a 10 a.m. conference call. I was physically spinning; lurching from one direction to the next with all the stuff I had to do—what should I tackle first in my office? Oh, crap, no one let the dog out. Where were my glasses?—and then my husband walked out of the second bathroom, freshly showered.

    I could not figure out in what universe he was home in the middle of the afternoon on Tuesday, looking so panicked.

    Well, as you’ve probably figured out, it was 6:30 in the morning, not 45 minutes after I’d gone to bed. It was Monday, not Tuesday. And even after he told me this, I couldn’t force that to make sense to my brain. I was, in fact, having a form of hallucinations. It scared him badly; he said later that night that he thought I was having a stroke and was, in fact, in the process of calling 9-1-1 when I seemed to snap out of it.

    And for the first time in our marriage, he told me what to do. And really, I had no choice. I had to pick one of the focuses and let the other two go. And it felt wonderful … until I started letting the calendar get unbalanced again. It’s a constant fight for those of us who want to have it all. Your approach seems to be working for you, and I thank you for sharing it!

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